I lost my mother last week.  I feel unconnected, untethered at times like I could float up into the sky and away.  I miss her so much and although we did not always have a smooth relationship, that seemed to change once I had the wees.  A new understanding for her own life, plight, struggles, tests.  She bravely battled breast cancer for years but this still happened somehow unexpectedly, suddenly.  She was easily the kindest person I have ever known.  I don’t know how this empty pit, this wobbly belly, will ever reconcile.  I love her so much, want her to visit me again, come to me in a dream, hear her voice on the wind.   Life is so fragile, precious, hurried.  I vow to live differently now.


10 thoughts on “Mom

  1. I am very sorry for your loss. My mom passed away about 7 years ago. I will pray for you to be given healing, peace, strength, comfort and whatever else you stand in need of.

  2. Oh my, I am so sorry for your loss and this fresh, heart breaking grief…I feel a kindred bond with you about mothers. My mother and I have had rocky times as well, but when I had my own children I understood her so much better, forgave so much, got so much peace. My mother’s health has been in jeopardy since I was young and I have had to contemplate her passing many times, She is still with us but I live with it in the back of my mind all the time, with an aching dread. I will keep you in prayer and hope for a dulling of that horrible pain. I will also take a lesson from you, about living less hurried. Your words hit home with me; what a blessing for your openness and honesty:)

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